***Written Jan 23/13***
So I know that I've said in previous updates that my emotions have seemed to subside along with my 1st trimester symptoms. I used to cry (or at least have tear-filled eyes) almost every single time I sat down to watch tv. There was always SOMETHING that made me emotional. Even if it wasn't meant to be emotional, somehow I made it that way.
Well something happened today that once I had time to think about it, I'm thinking that maybe I was/am overreacting.
I've mentioned this on more than one occasion thatI've had I'm having a hard time with the weight gain that is accompanied with growing a little human inside of you. I know it's inevitable and I know it's healthy, but I wanted more than anything to be that woman that only gained weight in her belly. HA, what a joke. I mean, for my body type, it's just not realistic. I'm not naturally thin and I have to work my ass off to maintain my weight.
I've been back to working out finally (screw you nausea) and have been slowly starting to feel good about myself again. Although I don't work out as much as I use to, I've been at the gym every Saturday and Sunday and I've been doing pre-natal yoga several times during the week. My bump is finally starting to show which has given me perspective and made me finally appreciate my growing tummy as a baby and not just fat.
Then today as I'm flying high while being blissfully carried in life by a little white balloon, someone comes along and sticks an ugly, sharp needle right in the middle of it and I come tumbling back down to reality.
I was at the fax machine and a coworker walks by, grabs my hips, giggles and says,
"look at those love handles!"
Uh, excuse you?
I couldn't help it. All I could say was, "Ok??" and proceeded to give her the nastiest look which I'm sure could have made anyone drop dead. She immediately started back-tracking but it was making it worse. I cut her off, said "Well I guess getting fat comes with the territory..." and started walking towards my office only to hear her last comment, "Just wait until you lose your figure all together"
I was SO humiliated I had tears in my eyes. I was angry at her but after about an hour of wallowing in self pity, I'm starting to realize that maybe I'm being overly emotional. She doesn't know my issues with weight. But at the same time I'm thinking, who the hell would say something like that to a pregnant woman?! What you should know about this lady is that she has no filter. Anything and everything could bust out of her mouth at any given moment which I think made it sting even worse. She doesn't know how to filter her thoughts therefore everything that comes out of her mouth is the truth. Or at least what she believes.
How far along? 16 weeks, 0 days
So I know that I've said in previous updates that my emotions have seemed to subside along with my 1st trimester symptoms. I used to cry (or at least have tear-filled eyes) almost every single time I sat down to watch tv. There was always SOMETHING that made me emotional. Even if it wasn't meant to be emotional, somehow I made it that way.
Well something happened today that once I had time to think about it, I'm thinking that maybe I was/am overreacting.
I've mentioned this on more than one occasion that
I've been back to working out finally (screw you nausea) and have been slowly starting to feel good about myself again. Although I don't work out as much as I use to, I've been at the gym every Saturday and Sunday and I've been doing pre-natal yoga several times during the week. My bump is finally starting to show which has given me perspective and made me finally appreciate my growing tummy as a baby and not just fat.
Then today as I'm flying high while being blissfully carried in life by a little white balloon, someone comes along and sticks an ugly, sharp needle right in the middle of it and I come tumbling back down to reality.
I was at the fax machine and a coworker walks by, grabs my hips, giggles and says,
"look at those love handles!"
Uh, excuse you?
I couldn't help it. All I could say was, "Ok??" and proceeded to give her the nastiest look which I'm sure could have made anyone drop dead. She immediately started back-tracking but it was making it worse. I cut her off, said "Well I guess getting fat comes with the territory..." and started walking towards my office only to hear her last comment, "Just wait until you lose your figure all together"
I was SO humiliated I had tears in my eyes. I was angry at her but after about an hour of wallowing in self pity, I'm starting to realize that maybe I'm being overly emotional. She doesn't know my issues with weight. But at the same time I'm thinking, who the hell would say something like that to a pregnant woman?! What you should know about this lady is that she has no filter. Anything and everything could bust out of her mouth at any given moment which I think made it sting even worse. She doesn't know how to filter her thoughts therefore everything that comes out of her mouth is the truth. Or at least what she believes.
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| Post was written on the 23rd, but picture was taken yesterday (16 weeks, 5 days)... I've definitely noticed a huge change in the last couple of days! |
How far along? 16 weeks, 0 days
Size of Baby D? The size of an avocado - Baby is now growing eyelashes and eyebrows, can now hear my voice when I talk and is starting to form taste buds.
Total weight gain? About 5 lbs (our scale at home is broken so this is still based on my last OB appt)
Gender? Less than 2 weeks!
Maternity clothes? Just rocking the belly band!
Sleep? Seriously... last night I had the BEST sleep I've had in months. I've been trying to find a snoogle to buy (as suggested from a fellow prego friend of mine) but the 3 stores I went to, they were sold out. Last night hubs and I were at Costco and saw the softest most comfortable body pillow ever and it has seriously changed my prego-life! I'm suddenly not restless anymore, in fact, this morning when hubs alarm went off, I was in such a deep sleep that it didn't wake me up. This is unheard of for me ...I'm the lightest sleeper I know and can honestly say that this is the first time ever that his alarm didn't wake me up. Heaven!
Best moment of the week? Feeling Baby D move! At least I'm 99% sure it was Baby D. I've been reading that a lot of women start feeling movement at this point in their pregnancy so in the last week I've tried all the "tricks" to get baby moving to see if I could feel it, but I got nothing. Wednesday morning I was sitting at my desk and was bent down to get something out of my bag, and I felt a VERY distinct flutter. I know a lot of people would say it was probably gas, but it was a completely different feeling flutter that I haven't felt before. I honestly think that I was squishing the baby so that's why I could feel it move!
Miss anything? REALLY missing diet pepsi lately. To be honest, I've had a small glass a couple of times over the last month but vowed to stop compeltely.
Cravings? Fruit and anything sweet (especially chocolate)
Symptoms? Not really other than frequent bathroom breaks (and possible flutters)
Mood? Just super excited for the future!
Upcoming appointments? OB appt Jan 31st, Gender reveal ultrasound Feb 6th.
Looking forward to? Finding out the gender!
Don't let that lady get to you! YOu look amazing and if you keep working out it will help you feel better about yourself and also make it easier after baby! You will do great.
ReplyDeleteScrew that woman, you look great! :)
ReplyDeleteNo. That was super rude. No one has the right to make comments about your body like that pregnant, skinny, fat or whatever!! I've always known that I would have a difficult time with pregnancy weight. I know what you are going through not in the sense that I've actually done it but I am hypersensitive about my weight and my body so I already know I'd be going through a similar thing. Glad the exercise is making you feel better and just forget about that woman.
ReplyDeletePregnancy hormones or not-that comment was uncalled for. I had someone tell me one time I needed to do another ultrasound because it's an old wives tale that with boys you gain in the belly and with a girl you gain everywhere...the lady asked what I was having and I said a boy and she said,"I think you should get that checked..your face is really fat." I wanted to drop kick her. People suck and so do their comments. Screw that person and her comment-you look great! :)
ReplyDeleteAre you kidding me?!! That is so rude! I would have kicked her! I will for you!! Jeepers! The nerve of some people! You look great and are growing a baby!! 2 weeks, yay can't wait for you!!
ReplyDeleteOMG I would have drop kicked her in the face!! You poor thing!! That is so rude and inconsiderate!! Hugs love!!! You look perfect!! I was even going to say you look like you are going to start carrying high!! My predictions are a boy ... for now :) Until your gender reveal! Congrats lady! You look great!
ReplyDeletethat chick was beyond rude, and you look amazing hun. Don't let bitter people get to you.
ReplyDeleteHow dare her say that to you, don't let her get to you! You look beautiful girl!!! :) & your little bump is adorable!! :)
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